i never want to forget...

that look in your eyes on friday when you saw what i got you.

you told me a million times i'm special. i think you are too. for the first time in my life too, i feel so appreciated. you make every bit of effort i take worth my while.

happy 3rd month anniversary to my dear sweet chunkie munkie

i love you so...

hurt

after much thought i've decided to pen this down.

someone said i keep bragging about my bf. said that i was insensitive because she was having a not so good relationship, say i talk about nothing but my bf.

what about you? when you were talking about your love interest, you were 10 times worse than me. i have people who agree. and you refuse to get out of your own bad situation, don't blame me for it. me insensitive? what about you when you were flaunting your own so called happiness (which wasn't even real) what about you when you were blatantly rubbing salt into my wounds?

if you are guilty of something (in fact worse), then don't try to stone others down. you have no right to.

she used the word "we". oh yeah i know who "we" means alright. the last time someone told me similar things, it hurts as much too. both times i ended up crying bitterly.

after all these years, we've been at each other's sides, i've been there when you were unhappy, i've been there when you were happy. i've never asked your ex to leave the room when we were in hall simply because i haven't got someone then. yet for once, i'm happy, you can't be happy for me.

do i not deserve to be happy? the words they used makes me feel so.

she says this: "no need to tell us when you are happy, if you have problems we will listen to you."

i thought friends share joys and sorrows. if you can't share my happiness, why would i want to go to you when i am in trouble? if you don't want to hear me out when i'm happy, then why would you even want to hear when i am not? so that you have things to use as gossip fodder? so you can gloat at my misfortune? so you can be glad that you're better off?

fine so be it, don't need to tell you if i'm happy right? then i'm not going to tell you anything. neither will i care. and since you don't want to hear happy things, i guess if the day comes for me to get married i don't have to invite you as well. since it's a happy thing and you said you don't want to hear about it.