me, mua, watashi

sometimes i amaze myself too, with my crankiness n weirdness and such...

i just put together a songlist made up of club songs and il divo songs.

weird huh?

Things I wanna do this december

1) pass my driving test
2) read harry potter and the deathly hallows
3) movie marathon
4) camp over at east coast?? (hmm still pondering...)
5) fishing!
6) prawn fishing!!

Gaawwwwwwwd

I want it to be OVER....

i just want it all to END.....

i wanna BREAK FREE.........

GAWD.... can somebody please help me?????

URGH!!

hmm...

dunnoe what kind of luck running in the family recently....

2 weeks after my grandfather got admitted to hospital in july, my grandma was admitted for almost 2 weeks as well. good thing was she was cleared and discharged without much problems.

then my grandfather has been shuttling between hospital and nursing home until now. he's stable, but nobody knows when he can come home.

now my brother's turn....

sigh... even someone not religious as me is thinking of going to the temples just to get rid of all the "hospital luck"

sigh... ttsh, here i come again....

and so the impossible does happen......

i must have been blind to not see this before.

i was wrong. the impossible does happen.

damn my stupid pride.

but it's all too late now....

Such a sweet song {updated}

Updates: i found the translation for the parts that are not in english.

If only i had someone to sing this for me.... even if he can't sing the verse, just the chorus would be nice... haha...




The Man You Love
Artist: Il Divo

Si me ves hallarás en mis ojos el amor If you look at me you will find love in my eyes
eres tú la mitad que a mi vida completó you are my other half I will give you all myself
Lo que soy te daré sin miedo a algun error without fear of making mistakes I believe in you and
creo en ti y dejaré en tus manos mi ilusión. I will leave in your hands my illusion
Quiero estar dentro de tu corazón, I want to be in your heart
Poder lograr que me ames como yo. I want you to love me the way I love you

I only wanna be the man
to give you everything I can
every day and every night
love you for all my life.
I don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough,
just to be the man you love.

Quiero ser el lugar donde puedas refugiar I want to be the place where you can shelter
el temor y calmar en mis brazos tu ansiedad your fear and quieten your anxiety in my arms
Desde hoy voy a ser todo para ti from today I'll be everything for you
Hasta ayer te soñé y ahora estás aquí until yesterday I dreamt of you and now you're here
Quiero oir tus secretos, lo que sueñes descubrir, I want to know your secrets I want to find out your dreams
quiero amarte así. I want to love you this way

I only wanna be the man
to give you everything I can
every day and every night
love you for all my life.
I don't wanna change the world
as long as you're my girl
it's more than enough,
just to be the man you love.

Just to be the man you love.

moanday blues~

yawn.....

still in holiday mood after yesterday's trip to sentosa... my moanday is soooo blue~~

the weather's horrendous nowadays. one moment it could be pouring like nobody's buisness, then 20 minutes and one katsu curry rice later, it's shining and hot and humid like nobody's business... didn't exactly help me to enjoy my after lunch ice-cream. i was planning on eating ice-cream outside my office building in the pouring rain... haha. thought it'd be quite shiok.

growl....

i just realised to my horror this morning that i only have approximately 4 weeks to internal approval, 9 weeks to thesis submission, and 12 weeks to posterday.

gosh am i stressed now. my thesis isn't even started! and i'm still stuck in my goddamn proposal.... zzzzzzzzz

but the good news is: it's finally coming to an end!

*phew*

geeky, quirky, lobsterish me~!

had a wonderful weekend.

saturday: afternoon with family, evening with good food, great beer and old pals...

sunday: the sun, the sand and the sea. add great company, and a little dash of adventure.

what more can i say? this is the life.... if only the weekend never ends.... lolz...

In loving memory...

I am terribly upset to have to announce the demise of subject number 2, a.k.a. maria the rat. he has been a wonderful companion in my days at gsk and he is in no way related to my dear friend maria besides being his namesake.

your cute presence will always be deeply missed.




subject #2, aka. maria the rat. 2008- 4 Sep 2008

feeling alive again~

i think i'm getting excessively high on the lack of sleep. haha. (in other words: i'm going mad.... hahaha)

i had the most ridiculous conversation via sms with mr lau (my jc eca teacher) on monday, which also happened to be teacher's day:

kb: hi mr lau! happy teacher's day!
mr lau: hi ultragirl, thank you for remembering me after so many years.. how are you?
kb: alright i guess? haha... some people are hard to forget mah... haha... n i'm trying to make
sure you all can't get rid of me... heehee... *evil grin* :P
mr lau: haha... ok... you win... thank you for being a wonderful part of my life... i will always
remember these sweet memories...
kb: i win? then what prize do i get? haha... oh gosh... so not to all the emotional talk... haha... i had loads of fond memories of the first aid team too... hope your students are all guai guai n give you even more good memories k?

*yada yada yada* conversation continues for a couple more smses...

dione said i sounded like i was flirting with my teacher. *er-hem* puh-leease lor... that guy is my TEACHER. lol... i just get cranky when i don't get enough sleep... haha. bet he must be thinking that i went mad or something.... hehz

but i gotta admit mr lau's one of my fav teachers of all times. haha. he's one of the "sunshines" in my life... i learnt so much from him.

including: enjoy your life to the fullest as it is. don't keep being envious of people on the other side of the window until you neglect what you have and live to regret it later.

very beneficial words to me. that was what really got me to open my eyes and learn to appreciate what i've got.

caught myself wishing i had a bf quite a lot of times last 2 months. haven't had that for a long while ever since mr lau's "enjoy yourself to the fullest" talk. (which was about 2 years ago? and boy did i enjoy my singlehood like never before...)

reflected a little and realised that the irony in how i got this idea, was that i have no time.

rationale: being too busy and too tired with work means it gets even harder to do the things i want to do, cos it's harder to fit into my friends' schedules. and when our schedules do fit, the interests didn't seem to fit. so during such circumstances, a bf comes in handy. cos he has no choice but to do the things i wanna do with me. hahahaha. *evil grin*

paradoxical eh?

but last weekend's farewell bbq for the girls at gsk and this conversation with mr lau was all it took to get me righted. who cares for a bf when i'm having so much fun?! haha. sacrifise all those to spend time with one guy? no way.... haha...

the good thing with the horrendous hours i'm keeping with at work is that i really learnt how to make the fullest out of my free time. now my social life is alive and kicking again. met my 38s last night, lunch with my dear old "sis", pending 01s1b gathering and sentosa trip with esther n yx this weekend, meeting mary next week.

n boy do i feel alive again.... haha =P

i've fallen in love....

with class 95 fm!

haha...

what were you thinking??

especially morning express. gosh they're the best. no matter how heavy with monday blues i am or whether i'm upset or angry, these guys just make my day lor... haha. you all should try listening on weekdays between 6-10am

another random thought

life's full of things (and people) to be grateful for.

if you don't see any, that's just because you aren't looking carefully enough.

it's just like the sun. although you don't see it at night, it doesn't mean it's not shining...

-- grateful for all the wonderful "sunshines" in my life! =D

the revealing......

as promised, here are pictures of my friends' namesakes... allan and ronald were camera shy and refused to stay still so the images are a little blurred. ronald was particularly uncooperative.... haha. think they were stressed by that strange rectangular thing which seemed to follow them whichever corner they decided to go to.

anyway, enjoy~

first up was maria... he was a really good boy today and kept still while i took his picture. but he hasn't been eating right over the weekend... his weight wasn't very good today. naughty naughty...



then i tried to take ronald. he was hyperactive today. it took me super long to get a shot of him. i gave up trying in the end. here's what i got of him:



first he showed me his big fat butt.....



then he ran past before i could take him. camera shy...

last up was allan:



he moved before the shot was completed hence the blurry image. but that was the best of the lot already.

yeap... i tell you they're the cutest little things.... and they've really gotten used to seeing me everyday that by now, they just sit in my hand while i check them. when i first started it was a chore to get them to hold still while i inspected them. i'm so going to miss them when they're gone... :(