i know you are upset. you don't have to hide it. remember your dragonboat race? remember the concern we had for you? it's still there. we'll still worry about you no matter how nonchalent you act about it.

because you're more than a friend. to us, you're family. remember this by heart.

"friends are the family we choose for ourselves"

i feel upset seeing you like this. it's just not you. stop running away from it. face it, sort out your thoughts, then move on. your problems don't go away by ignoring them. we'll be with you along the way, just like you guys had been when i was down back then. maybe you don't know it, but i am glad i had you guys back then. give yourself some time and space, let us know your needs, we'll respect it.

trust us to be able to be your support won't you?

ps: you know who you are, you don't have to identify yourself. i've been wanting to tell you this but i didn't know how to put it across, so i chose to blog. i'm sorry if it disturbs you.

我在政府部门的日子

Nope, I'm not going to talk about Fann Wong, neither is this post about Gurmit Singh. I'm talking about me, myself, and I.

Yeap, I just started work at MOH on monday. First assignment was a super big sai gang. One of my sups grabbed me, took a cab, went to NMD building to check old invoices. Imagine having to dig in 4 big boxes of old invoices, just to find 100+ records. Sian right?

But so far so good, I quite like the place, I like the people. Just that sometimes I get a lot of work. I think it's damn stressful to work in a government sector. When I am really busy I don't even have time to go to the loo. Haha. (Because I want to finish up my work so I can knock off on time and come in and slack for at least half an hour in the morning mah... haha... oops =P)

It's not so bad around here with the intern girl from NUS, but I think she's leaving after next week or the week following that. I wonder how I'm going to survive without her. It feels funny to eat with the rest of the branch without her. She's like the only girl who lunches out with everyone else. (My branch only has 4 girls not counting the one on leave)

Oh well... lunch hour is up... back to work... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

The long awaited for updates..

Yeap.... here we are, the long awaited for updates....

First of all, what have I been up to?

Thurs- Meet Dione for dinner, had sakae sushi. The spicy salmon sushi is GOOD. Yummy yummy...

Fri- Shopping with Dione! And of course, sign my contract for my temp job. Watched "Men in White" alone. Yesh Ronald, I know you told me don't watch it. Haha. I can see why, but I kind of enjoyed it.

Sat- Bladding with neko, pepperlunch dinner.

Sun- Bladding with Dione, Zong and Yix. teppanyaki dinner at sakae. meet Vern, Rong, and Mr Sunshine to chat and talk cock.

Mon- First day at work! genna super big sai gang. haha. lunch with neko, dinner with rong. poor rong, he got bullied by me to come out. haha.

Tues- Supposed to watch movie with Dione but her interview ended late so rescheduled. Spent the rest of the night shopping with vern and rong.

Wed- Meet Allan for dinner.

Thurs(tonight)- Meet neko, jiahong, maria for dinner and walk walk. (at this moment) falling asleep at my work desk.

i wan to update about my taiwan trip! but i forgot to bring my cds with the photos again. sianz... and my notebook which says which day we did what. oh well... next time then..

there are many occasions when a person does not act his/her normal self. one is when you're under the influence of medication, another is when you are in extreme exhaustion, or, you're under the influence of extreme emotions. (grieve, anger, happiness, etc.)

i don't know if you read my blog, but if you do, i just wan to tell you that we're worried about you.

i know you were tired, and of cos it's natural to be sad, but the way you were acting last night was just, not normal. perhaps it was the need to put up a strong front for your family and friends who are concerned. i don't know.

yes, i know you are a strong guy and you'll pull through it. but no one is infallable. any time you feel the need for a support, please don't hesitate to call. there's no need to hide your emotions before us. when you're ready, just drop me a msg k?

Updates

Thought I should get out of my laziness and update. Especially since my 38 gang complaining of cobwebs le. Nope, not on my trip, more on what I've been doing in the past week after I came back from my trip. I shall update on my trip after I get the photos from Yixiang on Sunday.

So what have I been up to? Buming around and going out every single day. Haha. I shall follow Zhirong's weekly schedule format. =P

Tues- Touch down at 11pm at Changi Airport

Wed- Sleep entire day. (Wake up, eat, sleep.) X many many

Thurs- Ktv and dinner with 38 gang, first time meet up with Xiaomei, Vern, Rong and Steven.

Fri- Sleep half the day, meet Dione and Rongshan for dinner.

Sat- Meet Libby, Jiahong and Maria for dinner at mind's cafe. Blardy ex~! 4 hours cost a total of $110+ for the 4 of us.

Sun- Meet Neko, Ronald, Shufen for games at Parkway Parade, all went Bugis for dinner with Angie, went Ronald's house with Shufen and Maria to continue playing card games and stay over for the night. Maria was damn crap!

Mon- Breakfast with Maria, went home for nap, met Dione for dinner and seminar.

Tues- Meet Neko for lunch, got bad news just when sitting down for lunch, meet Peter for tea, meet Dione for dinner and seminar. Sit at my comp and blog.

Yupz... that's about it. Till my next post!

Life

I always knew this, but it's kind of different when it hits you in the face. Countless babies are born each day, but at the same time, countless people die.

Today's the birthday of a friend, but today, another friend's father passed away. To him, the world might have stopped today, but to the rest of us, it didn't.

Do I ought to celebrate the day because it was Serene's birthday? Or do i ought to feel sad because a friend lost his dearest kin?

Amazingly, my day flew by just like that. I continued talking as per normal over lunch with neko and her friend. I met up with Peter as prearranged, we talked, we laughed, we joked. I chatted with my 38 gang over the phone as we had been doing everyday. Went seminar with Dione and made stupid jokes about the speaker, doodled just like we did during classes in the good old days....

It only showed me one thing. The world doesn't stop for anyone. And things can happen when you least expect it.

Cherish life as you would if it was the last day you lived. Cherish everyone around you too.

P.S. Happy Birthday Serene!

If only.....

Artist: Sixpence None The Richer
Album: Sixpence None The Richer
Title: Kiss Me

Kiss me out of the bearded barley.
Lightly, beside the green, green grass.
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step.
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

CHORUS
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight.
Lead me out on the moonlit floor.
Lift your open hand.
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance,
silver moon's sparkling.
So kiss me.

Kiss me down by the broken tree house.
Swing me high upon its hanging tyre.
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat.
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map.
REPEAT CHORUS 2x