Okie i'm finally back. haha. anyone missed me?? =P

anyway, i've a few things on my agenda today. here goes:

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Questionaire

mary said i should do this on her blog. so here i am.

4 things/people that make me smile:
1) my friends n family
2) kids. when they aren't naughty. oh n especially when they are sleeping. heehee.
3) reminiscence. that includes looking at old photos n talking to old-time friends. geez.. that makes me sound so old.
4) a nice touching story/movie/song?

4 ways to win my heart:
1) a nice big bouquet of my fav white tulips. i'll settle for white roses too. haha.
2) sing me a nice love song? do a few sweet things?
3) be nice, witty, jovial, dependable, fun to be around, n sweet. yes sweet. but not cindi wang kind of sweet please. haha.
4) be urself, i need to able to hold a conversation n feel comfortable enough to share my feelings n thoughts (sounds easy? think again.)

4 things I believe:
1) love? i mean all kinds of love. oh yar, n that there's a guy out there looking for me too? (idea courtesy of rongshan. haha.)
2) Goodness in people
3) that someday, i'd find my place
4) i can do whatever i set myself to do. as long as i can manage to convince myself to do it anyway. hahaha.

4 things I'm afraid:
1) that i can't do all the things i wan to do before i die?
2) living to a ripe old age without health, money n someone to grow old with.
3) cockroaches n spiders n crickets n what have yous.
4) of showing my true self? well everything's a facade isn't it? (pple included)

4 things/people I wanna see right now:
1) a certain someone.(well that's for me to know so dun ask n dun waste ur energy guessing.)
2) world peace?
3) an air ticket out of here?
4) my bed??

4 people who should also do this questionaire:
1) dione?
2) rongshan?
3) allan?
4) miao?
haiya dunnoe lar... whoever wans to do just do lor. but do tell me so i can go read... hahaha =P

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Travelling

been watching lovers in paris n suddenly had the urge to visit paris someday. definitely not now though. haha. then i started thinking of a few places that i would want to visit someday:

• Japan
• France
• England
• Taiwan
• China
• Hongkong
• maybe Korea too
• New Zealand (South Island)
• Rome?

that's a lot eh? haha. i am so going to be broke all my life if i wan to visit all these places. n knowing myself, the list will only continue to grow. haha. sigh...

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Me

i've been feeling stupid. my brain seems to have ceased functioning a long time ago. i think i'm going crazy too.

life sux. it's the same old routined life i've been living, nothing interesting, nothing exciting. nada, zilch. no advancements, no improvements, everything seems to be going downhill. n i'm definitely not getting what i want, in more than one aspect at that.

i'm getting so tired of everything. i wan it to end. i wan it to end now. but i know it's not possible. so i guess all i can do is to hang in here. well i'm kindda stuck here aren't i? it's so frustrating. i just wan to get it all over n done with.

ok so why am i saying all this? dunnoe really, maybe i'm pms-ing? haha. bleahz.

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alright... that's about it. end of my updates n grouses. hahaha. hope my next blog will be a happier one. =P well it's not me to sulk n dwell in unhappiness. i'm sure i'll be out of it in a couple of days. haha. cheers.